*drowning in mindless activities to escape responsibilities and depression*
Why do i even bother
to live any more? I feel like I’ve lost all the motivation to do what I desire with my life. I just don’t care any more but I want to. I’m scared about what this means but noone understands and continues to yell and judge me. I’m scared to be a failure but I;m also scared to just drop everything here and leave like I want to. leaving a life like this behind, people with judge and talk about you. I shouldn’t care but i do and it scares me. bit by bit something is slowly but surely sucking the life out of me. everything feels like a nightmare and happiness has the lifespan of a match. depression is the norm and im starting to feel comfortable in it again…pain, sadness, fear have made themselves at home.
the world may keep moving even when i stop but does that mean you’ll leave me behind too?